I was visiting a friend a couple of months ago and we had a conversation that I am still thinking about. He enthusiastically participates in workshops offered by a large organization and he sometimes assists in presenting them as well.
We were talking about how joyful and liberating it can be to connect with new ideas, realizations and states of awareness. At one point he said to me “Yes, people have these tremendous breakthroughs, but often it doesn’t seem to change much for them…because if you don’t apply what you learned, or align your daily actions with
your new awareness, you can bury it again quite quickly and the experience becomes just a story in your head.”
I appreciated the way he said it, and it is true to my experience. The curriculum of every-day life is where the rubber meets the road, and how I feel gives me accurate and undeniable feedback about the choices I am making.
I can ask myself: Am I coming from my experience of oneness? Are my choices bringing me to a deeper state of harmony? Am I thinking, feeling acting in alignment with what I know to be true?
Or is this the choice instead: I’m upset, and I have every right to be. I’m living in the real world here, and you can’t expect me to be at peace with this (person or circumstance). I’m only human. (Thank God you’re not!)
It seems to be a stage in the growth process to go through deep experiences of unity and oneness, and yet to keep it separate from daily life. Maybe it only seems possible to experience harmony in a certain place or with a particular person. But peace is always available now.
And I can really believe at times that am right about the cause for my unhappiness, and that I want to continue to be right more than I want that feeling of joining. But it’s not true. The desire to be right lives only on the top layer of the mind, which is the domain of the ego. It is not a true thought, and it’s nothing to be afraid of. It’s just a passing fancy of the ego.
I appreciate that each day, out of the kindness of Life itself I can easily see what I have chosen. I know by how I feel. And when I don’t like what I feel I can….Choose Again!